Writing

In the past... oh, I don't even remember (pause to check date of last entry)... two weeks, I have been intending quite frequently to take some time and write another note. I've actually mapped out a few in my mind (not all of which I remember atm!) and was really excited about writing them.

Alas, each evening I arrived home late from work, and/or had something urgent that needed doing or some event going on. This weekend we had an Outfitters retreat (more on that on a later date), and I kept going from one task to another. All weekend I have looked forward to & intended to set some time aside today to unwind and relax while catching people up on where my heart & mind has been.

Alas, this afternoon came, and the only thing I wanted was to curl up and sleep for 4 hours. I refrained, since napping inevitably means I'm incapable of sleeping at night, so settled for the next best thing - settling into the "Music Room" with Rachel and watching two movies ("Splash" & "The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything"). It felt nice to crash, but now I'm ready for bed and unable to get anymore in depth here then a long-winded and totally unncessary excuse/apology to myself & the world in general for not sharing anything actually important.

I must also confess that I have recently become increasingly wistful as I look at friends who have a greater energy & stamina level that gives them the ability to constantly keep going without crashing. Maybe it's developed with time, or maybe it's a character flaw that I want to simply go play or be lazy after doing a lot of work or being busy for a few days. Whatever it is, I feel myself burning out if I don't get the rest I need. I hope this afternoon and a good night sleep tonight refresh me enough to jump back into work this week with energy.

My current goal: be in bed by 8:45 (maybe earlier), and sound asleep long before Jen gets home from work (anytime between 10:00-12:00). I always wake up briefly when she comes in, but if I'm zonked far enough I can usually drift off again right away. This would be one of the few times that I'm very thankful she can't handle chatting upon getting home late!

Side Note: Although I admit to having enjoyed "Splash," I do not recommend it, especially and most adamently for all people of the male gender. I do very highly recommend 'Pirates,' however - I giggled frequently throughout. Big Idea is amazing for their ability to make quality kids shows with clean, adult appreciated humor woven in.